[She smiles bitterly and looks off to the side. Her tone is deceptively casual at first.] Perhaps it was, but Abel always lectured me about closing myself off here. Foolishly, I rarely listened to him. Now that he... won't be here any longer I don't really have anyone to turn to the way I could him. He saw me before...

[She made her heart so hard that nothing could ever breach it. Caterina trails off as well now lost in her own thoughts. It suddenly occurs she's talking about Abel in the past tense. The thought unexpectedly fills her with overwhelming amount of grief. She starts sob uncontrollably. The sound startles her enough to bring her hands up to cover her face, deeply ashamed of losing control even for a moment. She doesn't even notice the fact her legs are getting weak and she'll probably fall at this rate.

It's finally sinking in that Abel isn't coming back this time. Caterina doesn't feel she's handling it with the amount of grace she should.]